I was so angry at God.
Why would He make me this way, and put me here?
I thought He was pulling some sort of sick joke on me. (and frankly, sometimes I still do.)
I guess in that sense, I can relate to religious homosexuals.
It’s so easy to blame God. Because when you run out of external things to blame, it makes sense to look to the Creator of everything.
But it all comes back to you.
You and your free will.
It is an inconvenient, and perhaps even terrifying idea to accept. It may even feel like God has abandoned you.
But it is the most powerful thing in the world.
As Ronald Reagan said, “Above all, we must realise that no arsenal, or no weapon in the arsenals of the world, is so formidable as the will and moral courage of free men and women, It is a weapon our adversaries in today’s world do not have.”
Many things have been lining up for me lately. It almost feels like God finally reckoned that I’ve had enough.
Hence, it’s easy for me to speak of free will now,
since God has revealed a hint of the beautiful tapestry that is life.
But what of the rough times, where all you see is the mess?
That is when we are called to humble ourselves, to offer up our suffering to God.
How arrogant one must be, to deem himself worthy of deciphering the complexity of God’s plan?
Hopelessness and despair are the lies of Satan, and it is such that fuels the mindset of victimhood.
It is contrary to the teachings of Christ. For He will always prevail.
“And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.”
We are called to suffer as Christ has. And the fires of hell will be fuelled with the nihilism of those without the balls to do so. #freewill #catholicism
